Lucifer is unwell. I wish to see him, but I think he doesn’t want me to see him like this. I think he is very, very depressed. Drinking. I haven’t seen him as himself in months. I know Red Queen sees him, but it’s not the same. If I can’t remember it, then what is the point? I wish he wouldn’t lock himself away from everyone. I wish he would let me hold him. He doesn’t have to be sick alone.